and my last post wasn't even me but a beautiful quote from Baha'u'llah... definitely better :)
but so much has happened in the last 2 months.
in THE world, and in MY world.
and its so interesting how the two are so connected..
we are 6 billion.. it seems so vast when i say it and think about it.
but amazingly we all play a role in everyone else's life.
i still don't know what my role is.
its funny i was looking at the first intention with which i started this blog.
and it was a good one indeed.
to search.
but the answer to my search is still an 'i really don't know'.
not an 'i don't know' who i am.
that one was sorted when i was 17. i still remember that exact moment, place, thoughts, feelings, sensations, and spirit with which i came to know Who made me and where i come from, and really why i am here. this i am sure of.
but my 'i really don't know' refers to the idea of 'will i make it or not'.
will i manage to be strong, to love, to be honest, to be just, to be faithful, to be worthy of the trust of people, to be pure, to be generous, to be guarded in my speech, to be an answer to who needs help, to be a light unto them that walk in darkness, a smile for the sad, a sea for the thirsty, a fruit on the tree of humility?
i think that since coming to china i have learned a lot of new things, and have experienced wonderful moments as well as harder ones... i have changed and grown.
but some deeper things of who i am have yet to make that change... in the sense that this experience is not what will change you.it gives you that chance to see what you need to work on...
a change in setting will not do the trick as i once foolishly believed... rather it just highlighted my limitations.. i guess its good. its a bath in the ever-refreshing sea of humility. i hope i am swimming in it.
hope you all (if any of you are left) are doing well.
love you all.
shidON
10 comments:
i know what you mean. every few years the urge to move - to find something different - start fresh.
never really works ;)
well, i am here and loving every word of your wisdom and thoughts. things move forward and once we realise that it is the Heavenly Forces that guide us, the way becomes clearer and even more exciting. you are just at the beginning - the future is full of wonders!! lmy
i had the feeling i had to check your blog man!! mmm... what did i say few hours ago?? nevermind! eheh amazingly we all are so connected and experiencing so similar path unaware that what's happening in the world of others is very close to our own! you express so simply what's on my mind (sometimes)... keep up Shido! =)
ehi shidan...come va...sei sparito da facebook...come si fa x contattarti?! cmq tutto bene in cina?!
beh cosa รจ successo?? non si continua? gettato la spugna?!?
Really interesting post, it is really good to see this!
Great stuff, really good post.
Great post as always, thanks for the insight.
That sounds brilliant, thanks a lot!
What a wonderful post, thanks!
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